I’ve been working on releasing worry (doubt, resentment or fear – whatever you want to call it). I’ve done a lot of work, meditation and readings on it.
I get panic attacks and a huge pressure on my chest and heart. My stomach processes it too. Always has. I use rescue remedy to help my body manage the situation.
Recently things have been moving quickly, with insight coming to me about where it stems from.
I had a break through the other day and developed this layout to help me make sense of it. I then of course developed a reading for myself. I have typed it up so you can download and do for yourself.
I laid the cards out like building blocks. Moving from the issue, to the block and releasing the block, and then on up to action and outcomes.
1. Where does this worry / doubt / resentment / fear come from?
4 Wave Songs – It’s a period of intense change. One minute I’m on a high and then I’m brought down low. These moments can be silly inconsequential things (like having your wing mirror ripped off by a truck charging by!). The thing is to keep focused, moving forward on the stepping stones, keep balancing, and love it all (irritations and all!).
2. What is blocking me from releasing it?
Strength – My reluctance to be vulnerable, to relinquish control. Power even. I need to commit to learning, health and well-being. It’s a daily activity that I need to commit to and give thanks for. My courage will come.
3. What can help me release it?
6 Wind Songs – I do feel like I’m being squeezed in a vice. But the birds in the sky tell me to look forward and trust in the future instead.
4. What is the best next step to take?
2 Wind Songs – Birds again. Two birds. Twos can mean balance. They are calm in the sky, soaring above the ground, where I can leave the fear below. Time to float with ideas, thoughts, and possible ways forward.
5. What is the probable outcome based on me taking this step?
Wave Creating – Coming into myself as a mature woman. Feeling at home with who I am, in my body, who I’m becoming. Wisely taking time out to replenish so I can be true to myself and stand in my own power.
I usually check the card underneath the deck and this time it was 7 Flame Songs. Time to cut the cords that have bound me up, move out of the grey and into the colour.
I hope you try out the layout for yourself and find it useful.